11/18/2009 Changes

The one thing that i truly believe is that it is never too late for change. I don't care how old you are of what you have done, nobody is too late to be saved by the Lord. To have strong faith and a positive outlook, can accomplish anything!!!! Get involved with the Lord, Get excited with the Lord, Be vocal about how much you love the Lord!!!! I feel everyone goes around and does what is acceptable, and mimic's one another. Be different and be true to yourself and your heart. We are here for the Lord, not for US!!!! We are here to accomplish and conquer for the Lord, not US!!! Once you accept that and put it to use, then you found it!! People search and search for their answer and will, but through Jesus you will always find it. With the opportunities that present themselves, the certain people you meet, you have to have an open mind!!! I am only speaking for myself, but I am getting back on track with everything in my life and finally figured it out, I have been searching and searching and I finally found it. You have to put yourself out there for Jesus, you have to make him number one priority and top of the list, once you do that you start living for Christ. The things I am learning at Church I don't even have words for, when i read the bible i have tears of happiness for what the Lord has done for all of us sinners, I have true appreciation for Our Savior. I believe people know but they forget, and don't truly know!!! Make it a point to put yourself out there, go to church, get in the word, surround yourself with positive people that support you. I am in the best place of my life and it took me 25 years to get at. I am with my loving family that is only getting closer, finding Jesus and letting him take full force in my life, testing my body physicially with getting back on top with it, and for the first time in my life with a man that truly supports me and makes me 100% happy and loves me for me!!!! I have nothing to complain about. KatyRose

10/21/2009 Turning over a new leaf

wow so much has happened and im at a place i honestly never thought i would be. I have been through alot in my past relationship, i have been torn every which way, and broken and bruised never to ever think i could be at where i am today. It shows that you must never rule anything out, after my relationship i ruled out ever being with someone ever again, i vowed to be alone and that all men were a certain way and was so badly hurt from my past, that there was no way i would try again or give it another shot. It just shows when you meet certain people or that certain someone that slowly your outlook can be altered, and if you keep an open mind, it can change and all new bright fresh possibilites can change and open up. I have met an amazing person that i have kept in touch with and really got to know. I met someone who was patient with my situation and respectful and fully understand what i had been through. I met someone who gave me amazing advice through the good and bad times, i tried to give up on this person because i couldn't trust, but he wouldn't let me, i honestly cannot believe how much i have changed. I am finally able to let the past go, and im finally able to start fresh with someone that i care so deeply for, i don't even have the words to express how much. I have someone that is my full support system, and has shown me the most kindness and respect that i have ever seen in any other man. I had to write this because it should let others know that in any situation, certain people or that certain someone may come along. Keep an open mind and never rule out anything. To my dear Carlos, thank you so much for being you and i am so happy for this relationship and only good will come from this, thank you my love

9/28/2009 Time to Re-evaluate my life

i had a rude awakening with just seeing how things work out, and with my thinking in general, and I need many change ups in my life. I feel at this point in my life Im on my way to moving forward but it is in slow motion. I am happy with my decisions i have made, but at this point right now im trying to sit down and think about what else can i be doing with my life, and what can i do with extra time that i have. i am so thankful to have my loving family and friends, i don't know what i would do without them, and first and foremost i thank God for always being in my corner. I know i am still here on this earth because i haven't fulfilled my purpose yet, and i have many talents that i have yet to discover, and share with everyone else. The areas i feel that i am lacking are spiritual, holding my past against myself, and constantly blaming myself and being so hard on myself. I am always a positive smiling person, so i hold lots of feelings in and i need to change that and turn negative things into positive things. I always do such a great job for everyone else, now i need to treat myself the same and start practicing what i preach. So with my personality i work best with goals and plans and i am making a new set that i will live by day in and day out. 1) getting more involved with my own bible study, i can only benefit if i break down the bible verses and apply them to life situations. 2) pray the rosary, i am a catholic and i believe virgin mary the mother of god and main patron saint that if we pray to her she will help deliever the message to her son jesus, and also by praying the rosary you pray for everyone hurting and lost in the world. 3) keep up with my physical working out, i haven't slacked on that, ive been doing amazing with eating healthy and working out, it is such a stress reliever, how can i ever not want that? 4) To practice what i preach,i give out soo much advice, now im going to start listening to my own words and be my own cheerleader. 5) control my attitude, no matter what situation, i NEED to see the positive and not harp on the negative!!!! I believe with this small list, this will make a huge impact on my life and others that come across it. This is something i need to do from here on out in my life, i don't want to waste another day of not trying to discover more talents that God has given me, i refuse to be lazy and settle, and i refuse to stop learning new information, especailly when it is about God. My new recent tattoo i just got is my best motto by far and im so happy i have it because it is a part of me now and a constant reminder. my life is going to all be about God, Faith, Love. With those three things you cannot go wrong. So no more being hard on myself and getting down, im fully refreshed and happy and ok with myself and ready to have a positive makeover in my life!!!!God Bless KatyRose

9/17/2009 Everything and I mean Everything happens for a reason

i always write a note on here to always give myself a reality check about how things are and whats going on. It is such a general statement "everything happens for a reason" but the words are so powerful because our of every circumstance, whether it is sooner or later, you find out the reason!! It is truly remarkable to me how stuff works out even with the bad. We all go through and experience good times and bad, but it is usually the bad that we dwell on and always get down about, but what really is there to complain about, if we are still living and breathing?? Things are never going to always go our way, and there are always going to be twists in life that are going to come out of nowhere and knock us on our butt. You can't always control the situation, but you can always control your attitude, on whether it is positive or negative. It is so funny at least in this point in my life because I am able to see that everything happens for a reason!! I am actually able to look back and be like "wow i know why i went through that and experienced that." I am so much stronger today and so much happier today with the decisions i have had to make and everything is soo less stressful!! I am truly thankful that Jesus is always at my side and guides me with my actions and thoughts. In my personal opinion i believe that so many ppl are too prideful, and always feel they have to be right all the time, and have it their way,etc. It is nice to be proud of yourself, but taking it to that level turns into sin and evil. It makes you feel like you can judge others and that you are better then everyone else. The truth is that we are ALL on the same level, we are all human and we all sin. From the bible: It's a narrow road that leads to eternal life, because people sin and too prideful, never give up!! be the light!! The devil wants us to be miserable, have no peace at all so he knows how to get us down when we are at our lowest, so we must NEVER sink to his level. Its like we have one foot in the world, and one foot in the kingdom. It is always going to be a constant struggle because we will never truly know everything, until we are with Jesus. So to summarize it all up, I just had to say that no matter your situation, everything happens for a reason, so just embrace it and put trust in God, because nobody greater can back you up. He knows the best for you and you will look back and see the reason and what you learned. GoD Bless, katyRose

9/6/2009 Educate yourself

Only very few people will understand what I mean when writing this, but that's fine!! When I say educate yourself it basically means to open up all of your senses and actually really look and comprehend what is going on around you!!! In this world, there are so many shades pulled over our eyes and people telling us things that aren't true, but because we don't question it, and just go with the flow, we are deceived. It really isn't all about the different religions, that is everyones personal and private business and choice. I am talking about our world and government. It goes so far back, and it all starts with secret societys and lots of ancient ceremonys. It sounds crazy like out of a damn movie, but it is real. There are symbols everywhere, and more and more these days it is becoming more about money and control. If you have any extra time do some research. Look up history of the Masons (all of the presidents have all been masons) it is a secret society. Look up Skull and Bones (another secrety society of our goverment) look up the georgia timestones (you tube explains it pretty good) check out information on the airport in denver colorado (it isn't just a normal airport) read and look at what really happened at 9-11 with the world trade center, everything was set up by our own governemnt, so they would have an excuse to invade the other country do have control and oil. Do you see how things are staged, and filtered out? The information is there, but you have to do the research and once you do, it's your job to educate one another. This world is evil and it is only getting worse. My advice is be different from everyone else, don't buy into it and be humble and kind to one another. Give unconditional love no matter what!!

8/23/2009 Starting Over

I must finally say i officially have came face to face with reality. Things have been constantly going in circles, and I have tried to ignore it with a big smile on my face and crackin jokes. It is no longer funny, i am no longer laughing about it. All i ever wanted was progress forward, and all i ever wanted was a for sure thing, and stability. I could not achieve that and it wasn't meant for me at this exact time in my life. I now realize that I have to start over and when I say start over, it means with myself and myself alone. I have always been a free spirit, and have always made things work because of my positive spirit, and with the grace from the Lord above. I know my Lord has never abandoned me, he has been by my side the whole time, and he is with my especially now. I don't quite see the whole picture yet, but I am willing to accept it, and give it all to him, and have him take care of me. I need to literally start over with myself and get to know myself alone and get myself situated. I feel only good can come from this because you have to get yourself straight first, then everything else will fall into place. It isn't going to be easy, but I know the Lord will send the HOly Spirit to guide me and block out the negative. I know I am a strong woman, and I have gotten through many dark times, and i know this is just another patch that i have to cross. I am done trying to dwell on it, I am done trying to understand it and break down my faults. I have fully accepted it, and came face to face with it, and I am done. I leave it in your hands God, and I am fully focused forward and whatever lies ahead, I will embrace it head on. Thank you God for keeping me strong through this dark and lonely time.

8/5/2009 Priorities

I have said this over and over, but our society's priorities are so mixed up. I am going to point out a few things because recently I have really noticed them and been aware of them. How many times does one of your co-workers or friends comes in, and is so excited to tell you a bad joke, a dirty joke, whatever kind of a joke that they heard? A lot of times, and people get all excited to listen and anticipate the "punch line" so they make sure they are fully 100% aware? I know everyone has had that happen, well how come we get so excited and make ourselves fully aware for that? Why aren't we excited whenever we hear someone talk or speak out our Lord Jesus Christ? We should have that same attention we give for the joke for him, and a heck of a lot more. How many of you have your favorite T.V shows that you just cannot possibly miss? You will literally work your schedule around so you won't miss it no matter what? Why aren't we that excited about going to Church and praising Our Lord. There are always excuses about not feeling like it, or too tired. If your favorite show was on there would be no excuses, why aren't you able to be that excited about praising and serving our Lord? How many of us save up our money to buy a particular name brand of clothes, or an item no matter how ridiculously expensive it is? Why aren't we at least contributing donating money to the poor, and the helpless? If we can save a couple of hundred of dollars for clothes, why not at least donate a portion of that to the poor? I cannot believe how these things are actually true, and an actually reality in our society today!!!! I don't know how the majority of us actually can adapt to this, and think that this kind of lifestyle is ok? It really is just sad, lonely, and temporary. Why not invest our time into helping one another, and serving our dear Lord? That is what our number 1 priority should be, not all this materialistic crap in our world today. It really is a sin, and it is dragging us down because it corrupts peoples minds on trying to stress what you need to have, or what you should have, and that just isn't true at all. You don't need certain clothes, you don't need to be super skinny, you don't need surgery to change your look, it is almost like brainwashing. It is hard not to get caught up on, because everyone believes and sees it every single day, that is all you hear about on t.v, the radio, etc. Imagine what kind of world we would live in, if they paid that much attention to actually trying to educate one another on how we should treat one another, how we should dedicate our time to more important things and that if we waste our valuable time on things like that, it could be too late. Nobody ever thinks of it, because nobody has ever been there, so it is almost as if nobody believe it. Why do you need to see it to believe it? Do you want to really risk it, and then find out and it be too late? Prepare, Prepare, Prepare,.... PRAY!!! Be Humble..... Give Love.... Forgive....Repent, Repent, Repent!!!!

Please have a wonderful, blessed and safe weekend and try to pray to the Lord to open your eyes fully beyond what this world has to offer, to better serve and to better focus on him. Pray for one another for the ones that aren't fully opened and our trapped by what this world has to offer!! God Bless and Be Safe KatyRose

8/5/2009 How strong is your character

So exactly how strong do you think your character is? I didn't ask how strong you are physically, I meant mentally, and mainly meant spiritually? Would you break down at the first sign of a struggle? Or fall a few times, then lose hope? Or maybe you would just accept the struggle, and get stuck in it, and never try? Last but not least maybe do you deal with it, and keep going because you have your heart on the whole picture? Which one do you think you fall into? I think if someone would of asked me this question at different ages of my life, I think I would of had different responses because I was young, and still naive.

I will say one thing, a lot of people have their stories of struggle and what they have went through, but do you ever deal with the people that have to keep making it well known how hard it has been over and over and over? They aren't strong because they are negative, and still have not made it over the struggle. What I am talking about is being through a lot, and then some, and still having the WILL to move on. What if all your views and ideas that you had for yourself never worked out, and everything you thought was right for you, wasn't? Does that mean to give up? No!! It means that God has other plans for you, and you need to stop trying so hard, and let him lead you, once you let go, and let God take over, then you start to see his plan for you.

My favorite thing I have to say is what my fiancee said to me one time: He mentioned that everyone keeps looking for such big signs, and miracles, and basically almost as if someone needs to yell and make it clear on what they are supposed to do in life, and what there will is. He said to me: Maybe it isn't a big sign, maybe it is as simple as your supposed to be at a particular spot in someone's life and help them out of a bad situation, and guide that person, and maybe able to save that person, and that might be what your supposed to do. Maybe it is just talking to someone at the right time, and that could be your gift. Maybe we should look at everything as a sign, and be grateful. I never looked at it like that, but he said it and it really does give it a different angle. Basically, stop looking for such a big thing, because in all actuality you might miss it.

Now, when I ask how strong is your character, I mean this: If Jesus needed you or I should say If Jesus had to count on you, could he? Do you know that Jesus counts on each and everyone of us to spread the word of the gospel, and to be kind to one another and teach his teachings? He really does count on us. He is not going to come down and tell each one of us, because he shouldn't have to. He already proved his love for dying for each and everyone of us, and giving us eternity with the Lord. We should be shouting and praising the word and telling the goodness to everyone.

Oh well, stay positive. And just keep in mind that if Jesus had to depend on you, are you that strong? If not maybe you need to arm yourself a little more with knowledge of the good Word, and attend Church, and preach to one another. God Bless katyRose

8/5/2009 Laws

Do you notice that everyday we have laws that we must abide by? We have rules and regulations that we must follow. We must follow these because they are the laws of the United States of America and that if we don't follow them, there are consequences that could take action for not following those laws. I think that is a beautiful thing that we have laws because we must keep everything orderly so nobody gets hurt or out of line. But do you ever contemplate and think that why do we pay so much attention to these laws, and not God's laws??? That really is mind boggling to me. I say this over and over, but it never gets old saying it "everything here is TEMPORARY!" Why do we spend so much time obsessing about earthly possessions and treasures when they are all only temporary? We wouldn't be here if it wasn't for God, and Jesus's love for us. He has forgiven us from all sin, as long as we have love for him, strong faith, forgiveness, and love for one another. Why aren't we focusing on that? That seems like the most important law to me!! We have this thing called the Ten Commandments, in case you forgot about them here they are:

1 You shall have no other Gods but me.

2 You shall not make for yourself any idol, nor bow down to it or worship it.

3 You shall not misuse the name of the Lord your God.

4 You shall remember and keep the Sabbath day holy.

5 Respect your father and mother.

6 You must not kill.

7 You must not commit adultery.

8 You must not steal.

9 You must not give false evidence against your neighbor.

10You must not be envious of your neighbor's goods. You shall not be envious of his house nor his wife, nor anything that belongs to your neighbor.

Now why aren't we so strict about following these laws? This should be our number one priority. I will tell you this much, it takes something or someone to open your eyes up fully to see that this world has nothing good to offer it really doesn't, and that we shouldn't want to "fit" in this world or in this "society" because it has nothing good to offer, it is just full of sin, and violence, and mixed up priorities. We should not want to be classified in this society because it is so mixed up. Do you ever go to church? And if you do why aren't people more excited to be there? Heck half of the time there are more empty seats then filled seats. That is wrong, I don't care what religion you are or what the excuse is but Jesus died for all of man kind, and we can't simply go and give him our offering? Why is that? Too lazy, stayed up too late the night before? This world really needs to change before we ruin everything that we have been given by God. It really just saddens me. It saddens me to see so many people with good hearts mixed in this society of how we "should be" or how cool we are, and that is just all bull. Stop caring about what others think, and start thinking of God, and putting him first.
God bless katyRose

8/3/2009 Praying is the way to go

Prayers really are the way to go. If your having struggles, can't find the answers you need, lost, feeling empty, need strength, etc. Praying is the only way to go. People run off to psychics and try to solve their worries that way, and why are people running to psychics, and not giving prayer a shot? I feel everyone wants the quickest way out, or the fastest solution. Why is everyone so impatient? Everything takes time, we are never going to understand why certain things happen, we just have to trust in Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. We need to stop being in control of our life, and give it over to Christ. Do you think your looks are here forever? No!! So all of the people that are into themselves, and vain need to find a more deeper meaning. Do you think that we are here on this earth forever? No!!! So why are we investing so much wasted time into this earth, and possessions if it is temporary, why not make it meaningful and invest our time wisely.

I wish I could literally give a piece of what I feel to everyone else that doesn't feel it. Because so many people are wasting their time, and it is just sad. Everyone has their trials that they have to go through, we cannot escape them, nor understand them, but that is where we need to turn our cares and worries to God. We need to do that through prayer. Keep asking him to take them, and to put you where you should be, to fulfill his will.

I can honestly give an example: I have been going through a particularr trial lately, and I have been worrying, praying, praying and praying about it. Anyways, so what happened was that yesterday I was in my mass, and when they do intentions in mass, out of nowhere they have never done it before, they related to the subject that I have been worrying about and praying about, and asked everyone to say "Lord, here our prayer." I noticed that, and it made me so happy, because I realized God does hear me, and he even had all of the people in mass even pray for me. I was so excited, God really is beautiful he really is the only way to go. If you put all of your worries, and cares to God, and you really turn to him and pray, you will see things that you will know he is listening. So never have doubt, never feel alone, I can personally say that Jesus is always be your side, and he never leaves us, it is us who leave him, and wander on our own. KatyRose